I have bipolar disorder. I am chaos at best, and a wrecking ball of UPS and DOWNS at my worst.
Bipolar Life-Step Away
Without this very intimate relationship we share, I'd be crying in a bowl of Cheerios, feeling like a failure today.
Bipolar Life-My Darkest Place
It didn't take long before the mania and depression collided, leaving me in one of the worst states I'd ever experienced. Locked behind doors of a mental hospital, I never felt more alone.
Poetry-In A Moment Before Suicide
He knows just where you are, in the moment of death you seek.. He is the mightiest of mighties, as you find your weakest of weak.
Bipolar Life-Hidden Scars
No one knew these scars existed. Like every other part of my life, I hid them well.
Bipolar Life-Reflections that Lie
In one night, one moment, the reflection in the mirror was lying. Because while it was my face, my hair, and my body, it was never me.
Bipolar Life- Depth of Despair
Every night I thought of the guns, or pills, or even the rafters in the garage. I thought of dying more than I thought of living. Death just seemed easier. It may sound selfish to someone on the outside, it may be, but my will to live was slipping away.
Bipolar Life- Runaway
..and you're left quiet, because the alternative would probably be bad, and not your style...
Bipolar Life-Fire Within
What do we face with bipolar? We face deep depression. We also face sky high mania. Addictions that only rear their ugly head in the center of a manic episode. Alcohol, drugs, sex, attention, adrenaline.. We face anxiety. We face fear. We face the many complex parts of ourselves we wish didn't exist. There's only one way we are capable of doing this.
Bipolar Life- Lifted
..I hate the feeling of inadequacy and failure, at everything. Satan always coming at us through our weakest points. Even those small, unimportant things, like not vacuuming. FAIL...