Quick Reflection-I Still Learn

It’s when you look up from the down and realize,

I still have a lot to learn.

Because with all a parent knows, they know very little about their addicted child. Maybe the truth is what we once knew and what we think we know now are two different things.

Today, I live in a reality that the possibility of death is not a motivator towards owning ones recovery. If it was, motivation would be the idea of one more time using can lead to one last time breathing.

When someone knows Narcan saved their life not once, twice, or three times, but dozens of times, yet they still use, the fear of dying is gone, numbed by the need and desire to be high.

When using overtakes the body and shuts down the organs, you hope this is it, and they begin to love themselves enough to stop. You want today to be the day recovery starts. But more than that, you want them to want it, too.

Nothing manifests from what a parent wants, dreams, or hopes. Our words can’t change a thing. Our tears no longer matter. Others are unaware of our sleeplessness. We are invalid when drugs have control.

Will today be the day things change? Will valuing themselves and knowing they deserve so much more bring impact and breakthrough? Can hope penetrate the wall of hopelessness and the craving for freedom be more potent than the craving that leads to self-imposed imprisonment?

I’ve learned that I still have a lot to learn.

~Lisa 🙏🏼

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