I know freedom is but a choice to be free. Leaving the black caverns of sinful living for the lighted world of grace. Your forgiveness is not hidden from a single soul. Your mercy is not reserved for the found, but for the lost. Your love is the life raft of all humanity.
People rely on themselves for what only God provides, and it shows. We have entire courses to teach people how to be all about themselves! Self love sounds sufficient and enough.
..”I allowed myself to die before I am dead.”.. This is the raw truth of being done. Finding yourself at a place of hopelessness and fighting for the will to carry on.
How does one survive the war? They never engage in the battle. Step away from the friction and choose to be separate and live.
This vehicle was the only home they had because drugs own all decisions right now- along with the consequences.
Another blindfold melts away. For all I can see, there are still layers to go. In my hurting heart, it feels bigger than my mind can grasp. I didn't fail my children, but I cannot lie, my church is hard truth statement is dark.
One day, I will go home.
What flows from our heart should be life-giving, and our hearts should be an abundant river teeming with God's Word and flowing with His love. In the case of loved ones in addiction, their darkness can slowly consume us.
I was never the savior, medic, therapist, or pastor my kids needed. I was not called to that role. Fulfilling their everything was not my purpose. I had to let go. That’s when I found freedom from addiction and became reacquainted with my freedom in Christ Jesus. Funny, his freedom doesn’t feel like imprisonment.
The Holy Spirit reminds me it is always with me. Refueled with the expectation of comfort through the trials, I refocus on what matters in life. I remember what I can control and rely on- the love of my Father and the expectation of eternity with him.