In the search for my positive side, the word ‘better’ feels like a good place to start.
For years, I have been chasing better-better health, better walk with God, better communication, and above all, a better situation for my daughter. That last one, it is breaking my heart and tearing me in pieces that are beginning to wither slightly on the edges.
I am in the care of my grandchildren. I made that move for them to have a better life from the chaos they were enduring over the last couple of years. I also chose this option in hopes it would give my daughter an opportunity to secure mental health care, addiction assistance, and leave what she called an ‘abusive situation’ for a better life.
At this point, everything is worse.
Better feels like a good place to start, to pray, to believe, to hope. I am leaning more on the side of bitter I fear. Slowly, I am processing my own feelings and emotions through this ordeal. I remain thankful that I can offer my two “apples” (aka, apples of my eye, grandchildren) a better life. I am doing all I can to give them the security they have always known in me and my home, unwavering love, and the supervision they desperately need. At times, they were left alone, fending for themselves. Now I am there. ‘We’ are there to provide.
In all we do, and in all we seek, the one word that surrounds this situation is ‘better’.
The scriptures for the future flash through my mind. I would site them here, but my guess is you know exactly the ones of which I am referring. I do not need those scriptures at this time. Today, in this moment, I can rest here- that those who know HIS name and put their trust in the LORD, will not be forsaken. (Psalm 9:10)
Sometimes, it is not pity, but we lose our focus, and we gain the rain through the window view. Sometimes, we doubt, and we question. Some days we pray in anger and frustration. Nevertheless, it will always be the truth of every broken heart that when you know His Name, and hold on to the tiniest seed of trust, you will not be forsaken.
If you can hold on to that piece of God’s message, and press in when the days are long and the nights are hard, you will make it through to a better tomorrow..
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