Whispers of a Mother’s Heart ~ Begin Again

The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. -John 10:10

Depression, sadness, deep-seated guilt, and fear describe 2024 for me. All the emotions and state of being, I strive to rise above. Through the trials of loving someone lost in addiction, the enemy stole peace, joy, confidence, and comfort. Choosing to pick up and live free has been a monumental challenge, one that I understand is not easy. Yet here I am.

Considering addiction steals and destroys someone lost in the cycle, we forget how the tentacles of destruction reach family and friends. Evil is never satisfied with one. It thirsts for the souls of many. To those attached to addiction, consider this a reminder that you are not alone.

It’s time to heal. The last ten months were a reminder of my vulnerability. I fell from my perch of peace with each passing day. Refusing to connect out of guilt, I distanced myself from God and people. A unique response to family addiction is that we react to choices we never make. Our minds circle circumstances we never control.

How does healing begin?

I will walk through the tunnel of uncertainty and learn. My life flipped upside down this year. I grieve in new ways. I followed a dream, but it felt more like a nightmare. Once again, I search for hope, joy, laughter, and acceptance.

Whispers of a Mother’s Heart steps out of the addiction and reflects on the impacts far and wide. Many outside this dark world do not understand. How do you explain a mother’s broken heart? What words will describe a tortured mind? Is there a way to express a soul silenced by doubt and darkness? Can one voice in the trenches become a beacon of light and hope?

Please, Lord, I pray today that you will lead my words and guide me to grab the hand of one behind me as I hold yours. In Jesus Name, I pray, Amen.

Let’s go.