No, it can't be me.
When I came to the end of myself, I stopped holding on to hope in you and transferred it back to hope in Him.
I had reached my end. A year ago, everything changed. Not because you chose recovery, but because I did.
Can you ever forget? .."Living with a loved one in addiction is consuming. You won't forget the violent outbursts. The terrifying image of your kid slumped over and passed out from shooting up, or binge drinking stays forever. All the days you worried if they were alive in the next room haunt you."..
A talk about the real challenge of staying hopeful against the raw reality of family addiction.
I hoped my words would change your thoughts. If I could convince you of your potential, ability, strength, and power, then you would embrace your worth and value. I thought if I spoke it to you loud and long enough, you would believe and find your confidence again.
The National Survey on Drug Use and Health shows that over 8.3 million children under the age of 18 live in a household where at least one parent is addicted to drugs or alcohol.
Another blindfold melts away. For all I can see, there are still layers to go. In my hurting heart, it feels bigger than my mind can grasp. I didn't fail my children, but I cannot lie, my church is hard truth statement is dark.
It took months to achieve peace in the warzone of substance use. I asked God for peace in the early months of 2021, and today, I live in unity with my Heavenly Father. I no longer reside in the center of chaos.
After a decade, I have awakened to the true meaning of letting go and allowing God to work. He shows my loved one his tender mercy daily, wrapping her safety in the deadliest scenarios. It is evident to everyone but her. He loves us with a powerful love that seems foreign and unattainable. Yet, there she is-alive and healing.