I thought about this week’s word from both sides- motivate myself and motivate others.
I have to admit I am more inclined at this time to motivate myself. A certain chapter in life closed, and it is time to evolve into the next. Try as I might, I have yet to vision what that looks like. I think I am taking too much time thinking about this, rather than searching for ways to motivate myself into the next chapter.
Additionally, I have spent so much of the past years wanting desperately to be the one who motivates her children that I am still spinning in that self-made cyclone. While I was busy managing life all around me, the life inside of me was just laying on some couch, eating Doritos, staring aimlessly at the show I was living on the outside. In that show, everyone else was more important than I was. It has been that way since I was a little girl, and carries into motherhood, and family and friends, and jobs. Eventually taking hostage every part of our life until you cannot balance a thing.
Over the past few months, I have been evaluating this truth about the person I am. I love being a giving person who is there for everyone, who tries to make each person around her happy, and who puts aside her own self to care for others. Giving is amazing and brings joy to my heart.
However, it’s time to refuel, replenish, and reenergize- me.
Giving and giving without ever caring for yourself empties your tank. I have learned so much along this journey of life. I have yet to learn how to give to others while simultaneously giving to myself. This is not about being selfish, it is about being fair. I should not have to find myself physically broken before I realize I am mentally drained and spiritually stuck.
Who is that in the mirror?
What I know today, January 5, 2018-
I am working toward the person God intended me to be.
With that, God alone will motivate me in His will, His purpose, and His way.
Lisa @ A.T.
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