Another problem is feeling overwhelmed by my own life choices. Choices I made, with consequences that are on me. Overwhelmed wives, mothers, daughters, sisters, employees, can both rise and fall depending on their current state of mind, support, attitude, ability and trust.
While I was busy managing life all around me, the life inside of me was just laying on some couch, eating Doritos, staring aimlessly at the show I was living on the outside.
The years pass like a speeding money train on route to an important destination. If I blink, I may miss it. I can stay parked on the couch pouting, frustrated and invite Stress to linger. On the other hand, with confidence and faith, I can respectfully decline the invite to mope-ville, and prepare for the days ahead.
I knew this time was coming, I have written about it for a couple years now. As a mother who was so deeply involved there has been grief for losing the woman and mother I was once.
These topics are ugly, I know it, you know it, and we as a community know it. Not our children, we cry. Not the innocent beautiful children.
To assume a young mother, or father, is not capable of doing the work necessary to live well is laughable, naive, and dare I say- ignorant?
The more I share and listen to others, the more I find I am not alone. Life was never easy. Honestly, many days, life sucked. I did not want to be where I was in that moment, especially in my childhood. I certainly prayed and cried myself to sleep many a night, just to wake up and find myself on the same ride.
To the men that take my son onto a field of fire. To the men who teach him football, about a winning desire. I take a moment to thank you, before my God and King. For though the field was meant for battle, you showed my son the greatest thing.
Divorce is an everyday thing in the 21st century. Adultery is common, for both men and women. These issues are found in every church community, small group, and many pastor’s circles. Still, there are people afraid to come forward, to share their pain, for fear of rejection, ridicule, and judgement.
He never desired to leave anyone behind in his or her sins. Often telling those he loved to go and sin no more. He loved the woman at the well. He loved Zacchaeus. He loved the sinners!