In the search for my positive side, the word ‘better’ feels like a good place to start. For years, I have been chasing better-better health, better walk with God, better communication, and above all, a better situation for my daughter. That last one, it is breaking my heart and tearing me in pieces that are …
The worldly perception of the Christ follower is often opposite of the truth. We hear words like uptight, prude, mousey, and there is always hypocritical thrown in by someone. Believers do not go to church because we are better than or perfect. We go to church because we are broken, humbled, and desire to meet with others who know exactly what that means!
You see, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. In many cases, I assumed I could 'fix' the world because I know I have that power. But I cannot.
As we watch her fight and take this time to continue to develop and grow, life seems so very small, and in many ways, we value the idea of less.
If it were that simple, this world would look very different. Love is hard friend. It may not be easy to love what others deem ‘unlovable’ and difficult to love.
But today I had a blessing, that forever in mind will stay.
As she bowed before God and his people, bowed her head and prayed.
s much as I love those times of running away, God tells me I do not have to run to rest.
I spent some time with God, and took this tranquil time to be in some deep thought about many things. Sometimes, when we feel lost, God opens the doors to see the reality that we are just in a different time of life, and that time is valuable and necessary. Surrounded by silence was exactly where God needed me to be.
Four years of writing bits and pieces of my living and breathing authentic life- yet, for the most part, it was my authentic past, or other's authentic lives that were intertwined with mine, pulling me into their journey far more than I was truly living within my own.
So tonight, as I shed some of those tears I thought had dried up, I can rejoice in knowing that Jesus understands that fatigue, he understands my pain, and he understands the tears of joy, he understands my emotions- and yes, he fully understands the flood as the dam was released, and those wet drops began to fall.