Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus.
“Lord, do I have enough in me to handle this?”
This is a common question of many people going through one thing or another.
I am journeying through prayer for a loved one in addiction. We have traveled this ordeal for year’s. Only by the strength of God have I overcome the fear.
I wore my mom cape daily for as long as I could, but the fatigue in the war eventually won. I began to fade in their addiction. I dealt with disappearance, needles, bottles, theft, manipulation and lies, nodding off and paranoia. I had to perform CPR after overdose. I fought for them on every level to desire change and recovery. My fight was futile.
I was unable to help either one because they were unwilling to help themselves at the time. However, I was hurting and losing myself in an addiction I never had.
I turned to God for help because I felt weak and lost. The fact that I was powerless in their disease broke my heart. I had nothing more to give and felt depleted.
Philippians 4:19- God will supply all our needs according to His will through Christ Jesus.
The full power of Christ hit me. His word refreshed my soul in the heaviness of life crisis. As small as I felt in the moment, I was mighty in Christ.
What I need, He provides. The strength to process and move forward comes from Him. The peace, comfort, and quiet wisdom to restore my doubt to hope and faith, He supplies.
What I needed in the most trying times of my life, God gently placed within. My only job was to surrender and yoke up with my Savior.
I was in the midst of utter chaos, but began to live in unrelenting peace. Putting my efforts into my relationship with God over complete focus on my kids changed everything. Internal harmony became my norm.
I hung my mom cape long ago. Contrasry to mitten patrenting, mom’s don’t wear capes and aren’t meant to carry that burden. I no longer live in addiction with my kids. I know I’m not the savior here, I can’t fix their situation, or change their mind. I am at peace and accept the full situation as it is.
And His peace will guard my heart and mind; and in Jesus, I have enough in me to handle anything the world hands me.