Months have passed that I’ve been pondering what is next. I’ve had time alone to do much thinking as my husband was working out of state and took my son with him for a few weeks. I thoroughly enjoyed that time with no one but the presence of the Holy Spirit and myself. I relished the quiet moments we shared, and feel blessed to have had those days alone with my God.
So! What exactly did I come up with for the journey? I have to confess, I’m still at a loss for the answers I crave, but God’s not done with me yet. For now, I wanted to remember something I loved doing before I had marriage, kids, schools, work, etc etc etc… and I realized, some of my happiest times are adorned with nature’s splendor. Hiking through the forests of the Colorado Rocky Mountains.
There is something truly peaceful about a walk through the beauty of nature. As I made my way up the trail, my eyes were constantly glancing down the small stream that wound it’s way through the path. I reminded myself that the waters would, at some point, pour out into a body somewhere. I cringed slightly, knowing, in that space of openness is where I find myself often.
But not on this day.
Today, I remain on this secluded trail. I smell the freshness all around me. I look down at the damp ground and see a new aspen beginning to grow. Life is sprawling before me. The sun plays peek–a-boo as I meander through the dense forest. But always, I see its light.
I’m smiling from ear to ear as I share with my teenage son, this is my heaven on earth. This is my happy place. As we sat down together for a snack and a break, we just listened and took in our surroundings. I realized that I am introducing him to my happy place for the first time. Sure, we’ve been to the mountains together, but this walk, this moment that I dropped every part of everyday living- laundry, cleaning, errands, bills.. and just drove west, means so much to me.
Scripture is filled with meaningful reminders about how we spend our time, and who we spend it with. One of my favorite reminders, begins with “BE STILL”. (Psalm 46:10-“Be still, and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!”)
We don’t know how to be still anymore! We don’t recognize that our need for control keeps us in movement, and when we are so busy seeking control through life, we can’t hear the voice of our creator! We can’t feel His amazing presence! Stop being in action and be still, and know He is God!
He is the King! He is the beginning and the end. Where I feel lost in the ocean of uncertainty, He is there as my life raft. And when I’m calmly sitting next to the gentle flowing mountain stream, He is there in the quiet of my thoughts and the deepest parts of my heart. He will be exalted! He will be praised.
No matter where I am, literally or figuratively. I don’t have to fear the openness, the confusion, the ambiguity of tomorrow, for no matter where I am, He is there with me.
“Be still.. and know… I AM GOD!”