Sitting here tonight, Thursday, with my feet tucked into a kneading, vibrating, heating foot massager. I won’t be alone tomorrow so I thought I better write tonight. The grandbabies will be hanging out. My place will be anywhere but seated behind a computer of any kind.
There was a time my only place was as a mother running around in confused circles, pretending they were perfectly formed shapes of my life. A time that I thought control was my middle name.
I’ve been put in my place since those lala days of unintentional cockiness. Today, I confess, I’m pretty delighted that my children survived. Though I’d love nothing more than to say that with some amount of tilt to my nose, I can’t.
The truth is, I declare that victory with my head bowed in deep admiration, and humble gratitude for a God who never left my side. Who saw me through the pains, trials, battles, losses, failures and successes of parenting.
I drop tears for the disappointment I was at times, and thank him for the discipline He gently used, on me. I let out a deep sigh of relief for His mercy and forgiveness.
I had this distorted idea that I had to be better, than who or what, I don’t know, just better.
I thought if my children were in church, dressed decent, learning memory verses and Bible stories, taking part it in this ministry and that ministry, hanging out with the other kids all doing the same thing, then I was succeeding.
I’ve learned, success isn’t measured by how much we do in church. No. Success is written through the life we live in being the church. That’s our place folks, to be the church.
How we parent, what our kids are doing, if we write on a Friday or Thursday night.. it’s all meaningless..
God has put each of us in our place-to be the ‘the church’, if we aren’t living from that prospective, we’ve missed the point.
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