Just some random thoughts in my unkept mind.
Without loyalty and respect in the center of all actions, you are not practicing self-reliance or independence. Without those essential parts, you are practicing selfishness.
Who wins when all is lost?
"I am not attracted to you anymore; I do not love you."
My mental illness may challenge us, major medical issues challenge many relationships. BUT, they NEVER define them. We press on together, as one, even when one needs space and time alone.
Only other women who've dealt with the pain of pornography would understand. I desire a fresh start but I fear a fresh start.
When I am experiencing the world, God is calling me to experience him.
Am I willing to accept the flirting, and affection, and intimacy knowing I remain the other woman? Because that is what I am setting myself up to do.
I learned a few years ago, if I get away, I had to force myself to let go. This is self care!
Don't lose sight of your marriage while in the marriage. One day you will appreciate that you held on.