Family Addiction, Mental Health and a whole lot of Faith
Life, reflection, and aging. If mid-life is here, what I am in it?
In my mind, I was hiding in a dark closet that Jesus would never step in. When I say these words aloud, I imagine there are many people with issues I am unaware of, sitting in a closet somewhere, thinking Jesus would never enter, too.
I'm beginning to see that whatever title life gives me, God has given me the strength, courage, ability and motivation to be just that. I don't get to be one without still being the other.
Oh the joy of aging. We look up and down in the mirror. Somethings look down and keep looking down, hello gravity!
What I found through this intentional journey was that I wasn't building a bridge to close the gap, but I was building a bridge to the other side, away from the fear, the chaos. And when I crossed that bridge- I burned it down!
For what I saw that particular night was exactly how I imagine my Father in heaven loving me- Always having one hand holding me, and his eyes always upon me.
I could see her veins through her paper thin skin, I could see her little lungs working so hard to gain oxygen, and I could feel my heart pound at the love I felt for that little someone that I just met. She weighed all of 1 lb. 11 oz., and all I heard over and over from the nurses and many doctors working tirelessly by her side was, "She is doing great!"..."I can't believe how well she is doing.."
It didn't take long before the mania and depression collided, leaving me in one of the worst states I'd ever experienced. Locked behind doors of a mental hospital, I never felt more alone.
One by one their lives and their spirals and my presence changed. They have their own lives and I'm just a small part of it, maybe much smaller than I ever realized.
He knows just where you are, in the moment of death you seek.. He is the mightiest of mighties, as you find your weakest of weak.
No one knew these scars existed. Like every other part of my life, I hid them well.
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