People become desperate to change their life. Or, people get desperate to feed their addiction and lifestyle. It goes one way or the other.
If we are not living a life in submission to our Lord, then we are living a life that brings us nothing more than a reflection of self-indulgent, disobedience. Our outward walk will only reflect our inward, self-seeking desires, and at some point you will collide with the Lord’s desire for your life.