Psalm 68:5-6
Father of the fatherless and protector of widows is God in his holy habitation.
English Standard Version
God settles the solitary in a home; he leads out the prisoners to prosperity, but the rebellious dwell in a parched land.
I am a ‘fatherless’.
A couple of years ago, I wanted to experience no regrets. I have intentionally forgiven, apologized to, or thanked the people who impacted my life. However, there is one hurt, one disappointment, and one link that remains unanswered, my father.
The tension of feeling abandoned has been high. Father’s day is a struggle, while men I know as amazing fathers are a joy. Torn between appreciating a good thing and resenting a bad, I struggle to find balance. What others experienced, I never will, but I found I was never lacking.
Even before I knew God, he knew me. From a young age, I felt his presence and talked to him. During abuse, I placed my little hands on a set of porcelain praying hands and spoke to God. Those talks continued and still do. While I was never protected physically, I now see the mental and spiritual protection of my past.
God was always there. He held me on bathroom floors as I cried and stopped me when I thought death would be best. He’s met me during worship at church, took my hand in his and swayed to the sound of praise to Him. He comforted me on a hospital floor the night my son was fighting to live. He rocked with me in a rocking chair in the NICU as I laid hands on my granddaughter to save her eyes.
He has provided and engineered perfect connections. When I froze in fear, He conquered and carried me. When I began to teach His Word, he guided me with wisdom. As time goes by, I experience my Father on a more profound level. I obtained confidence in accepting this relationship for what it is- complete.
I invite you to accept your truth today. If you are missing this piece to your puzzle, I hope you will seek the fulfillment that comes through our Sovereign God. The bitter side of being fatherless can be debilitating. We have a complete and perfect daddy who sits on the throne. He is mighty to save and open to love.
Today is a day to assume your position as an adopted child of God. You are loved beyond all measure and cherished unto eternity. When you look in the mirror, remember you are royalty.
Lisa @ Authentic Truths 