Family Addiction, Mental Health and a whole lot of Faith
You can only be the David of your own life. Satan is going to come at you through their addiction, but he’s coming at you for you. Don’t be so immersed in your desire to save your child that you forget yourself.
When the bad got worse and everyone departed, I stood firm. I’m not confident I was wanted, though. The more I stayed, the more despised I became. Eventually, I left you to do what you wanted to do.
Being right in our feelings is not being righteous to God.
I wake up every morning to an absence I never prepared for. How do parents ever prepare their hearts for moments like this? Addiction continues to steal precious lives.
God's love will lead us to step aside. His parenting must come first.
I play the 'forget game' to move on. Forget what they did, forget what they said, forget the pain, forget the abuse, forget the porn, forget the drinking. I work so hard to forget, I never allow myself to heal.
When I am bound by bipolar, I fear movement. I cast this unimaginable shadow over myself that darkens with each passing day. I proved this earlier this month when I looked out my office window and noticed the sun.
For some, the safe love is for their own heart and wellness- because the stress of their loved one’s addiction has caused true illness- heart disease, high blood pressure, mental illness due to-anxiety, drastic mood shifts, and mental sickness from the occasional life saved from overdose, right there in your living room or bathroom.
..”I allowed myself to die before I am dead.”.. This is the raw truth of being done. Finding yourself at a place of hopelessness and fighting for the will to carry on.
I am a parent of an adult loved one battling substance use. For years I fought alongside, tried to motivate, and lent help in any way I could. I have paid bills- sometimes for months, I have posted bail, bought groceries, clothes, and other items. I opened my home in hopes of change. But the desire for change was outplayed by the desire to be high.
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