2 Corinthians 12: 9-10
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong.English Standard Version
When I chose Christ as my great healer, doctor, and counselor, my mind went through a profound transformation. My heart was weak and dark, searching for wholeness. After years of shallow faith, I plunged headfirst into the deep waters. I knew apart from Christ, I failed, and in Christ, failure was impossible.
Desperate to be free of the battles within mental illness, I prayed for change. While I was never opposed to medical treatment, I despised the idea of being reliant on what they offered. However, it was not feasible to consider managing myself, either. Self-reliance apart from Christ, is prison to self. We were freed from that long ago.
Instead, I surrendered myself entirely to Jesus Christ, beginning with my broken mind. People believe in God for healing from illness all the time. I chose to trust him in the healing of my mind. I submitted the how and what of my thinking. The battle to surrender is not a single moment of raising a white flag. Surrender is a daily choice. If you want to experience freedom in forgiveness, joy, and peace, then submission is what you must do.
In my life, the more I surrendered, the more intense my relationship with God grew. I poured out to Him, and he poured into me. Increased dependence on Jesus increased my confidence. I accepted my weaknesses and limitations but knew they would be transformed in Christ. When He filled me, I was self-reliant through what was inside my being, the indwelling of the Holy Spirit.
The truth is we are never alone. Once we receive Jesus Christ, The Holy Spirit, our internal Comforter, intercedes on our behalf. The Spirit guides, teaches and points our worship to God. With a mind so focused on God, we can distance ourselves from the world. In this, we find freedom to believe, trust, and evolve as children of the Most High.
“When men surrender themselves to the Spirit of God, they will learn more concerning God and Christ and the atonement and immortality in a week, than they would learn in a lifetime, apart from the Spirit.” -Brown– “Why Don’t They Understand”-Bill Brinkworth