Over the last year, I had to practice letting go.
For the most part, it was rarely by choice. I had to practice letting go as a parent, letting go, or deferring, goals, and letting go of expectations. Of all the letting go I did, the one that troubled me most was letting go of me. In today’s world, this concept seems to run opposite of the common rhythm in society. Just the other day I read a story of a woman who got married-to herself! I suppose it was some toast to freedom in singlehood and embracing her identity in who she was, alone and free. The whole thing hit me wrong, and seemed contrary to what God desires for us. The wedding dress, walking the aisle, bouquets, reception, etc., all to honor yourself seemed a bit overdone and unnecessary.
Letting go invoked many emotions. I was angry for having to do what was necessary, sad to say goodbye to who I thought I wanted to be, and disappointed that others were dictating my path. Currently, I feel a bit lost in the release. Some days I still experience those emotions, some days I feel content in letting go. As I continue to practice obedience and accept discipline as it comes, I challenge myself to give thanks. For the record, giving thanks takes practice at times.
When I was married, we did not have a big ceremony, or flowers, or even a party. We did things in an unconventional manner. The day I signed my marriage certificate was a day I practiced letting go. I let go of a degree of my selfishness and made a commitment to God to honor my husband in a committed relationship. I have failed to honor him at all times, but I continue to practice. I never considered that our signing that document meant anything else- it was never about us in my mind or heart, it was always about honoring God. I could never have a ceremony that was all about me (no offense to the bride to be to herself??).
My entire life seems like practice. Practice toward the kingdom. I fail God daily, but I keep swinging the bat. Take up your cross, deny yourself, and follow Him. (Luke 9:23) It takes practice to turn away from self and focus completely on Him. I continue to pray to do just that.
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